It is exactly how I felt during this game of the first round of the big tournament. The guy got White and we played Queen’s gambit Slav, Exchange variation. I misplayed it and had to go back with my bishop. Still I was OK until I played these bad moves Nh5 and f6. Right after f6 I saw Bc7. He played it and I got into trouble.

Then after Nh4 I thought that I lost the game, that’s how bad it looked. Amazingly he played 20. Bg6 and I saw f5 right away. I couldn’t believe my eyes! Then I Β probably played it too safe, computer doesn’t like at all my queens exchange. For the price of the pawn I eventually got all my pieces in play and after 45… Rc4 I felt that I am winning. But the guy was not in Β a hurry to agree… My Na3 was the right move, but 49… fxe4 was of course a mistake, g6 was keeping the fort. The same g6 that I played one move later could cost me a game after f5, as it is losing by force due to a two passed pawns and remote knight. He didn’t see it.

The play continued and then he played 54. h4, to which computer puts ?? comment because of Nxe5. Would you believe me if I will say that I considered Nxe5 at least a few times? But it seemed to me that his king gets to the pawns in time. What I didn’t see was that my king after eliminating “b” pawn succeeds in taking “e” pawns too. And the last thing I didn’t see with 8 minutes remaining (no increment) is that I could play 56… h5 and get my king to c6. Still, natural Kxb6 allowed him to get a draw after f5 and my king is too far. So, only careful maneuvering with Β a knight and a king wins here. After 58. Kb5 he said it was a 3-fold repetition. I didn’t see a win, so agreed to a draw without even checking the score sheet.

I can only add that the guy played really well later at the tournament and shared a second place with 4/5.